Borrowed Time.
(From Unpublished draft January 23, 2019) I feel like I am living on borrowed time. Only last week that we found out that our baby has not developed fully, his condition is way worse than what we have expected from the onset our doctor told us there is something that should not be there. We were told he is not going to make it to fully complete full term pregnancy. In case he makes it (which is unlikely), he would not even last longer than we would prefer and may even suffer by being born. We were told to wait for our baby’s heart to fully stop or naturally have miscarriage. In short, we are to painfully live each day and wait on when can we finally move on. I guess that is the best way I can describe my situation without really going into each details. To go through about the entire ordeal again is just painfu. I am still in unexplainable pain and grief. We have heard stories of miscarriage but having something to know about it even before it happens it takes yo...