My post last night is a bit melodramatic. I wrote it a little late and my tired eyes made me more sleepy. Reading it now made me realized that I made some grammatical errors.
Anyways, have corrected it now. I will write more from now on :)
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Directions: Stubbornness vs. God's Sovereignty.
Oftentimes, my stubbornness gets in the way of putting God and His will above myself.
My decision making isn't that good as well, that I often commit mistakes...No, blunders! Sometimes, these blunders were too big I couldn't even imagine how I was able to get this far.
Getting to the bottom of my worst blunders, I found three major issues.
-One, I was stubborn and I had to learn things the hard way. There were signals that I was not able to follow, and there were warnings I ignored.
-Second, I was too proud that I thought I would be able to make it alright.
-Most of the time, it was just because I became too emotionally blinded seeing only limited options, that when I was pushed to the wall of "wrong avenues", I caved in.
I do imagine "What if the situation I've been through happened to someone else, would they make better decisions?" Could be, or could be worse. Would they even manage to crawl up and pick up themselves? Would they manage to accept they made a mistake and ask for forgiveness? Would they be able to forgive? Would they reach out? I had hoped that I was as sheltered as other people from all sorts of deceiving - self inflicted or not.
Looking back, I know my life isn't the life anyone in my position would be proud of, but what makes me grateful is that, at least somehow, I made it. I may have resisted and failed to respond to God's grace, but still I will be forever indebted to the sovereignty that He has given. It was His guidance that re-aligned my directions according to his purposes and plans for me.
"I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6
"It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone. (Ephesians 1:11, 12 MSG)
My decision making isn't that good as well, that I often commit mistakes...No, blunders! Sometimes, these blunders were too big I couldn't even imagine how I was able to get this far.
Getting to the bottom of my worst blunders, I found three major issues.
-One, I was stubborn and I had to learn things the hard way. There were signals that I was not able to follow, and there were warnings I ignored.
-Second, I was too proud that I thought I would be able to make it alright.
-Most of the time, it was just because I became too emotionally blinded seeing only limited options, that when I was pushed to the wall of "wrong avenues", I caved in.
I do imagine "What if the situation I've been through happened to someone else, would they make better decisions?" Could be, or could be worse. Would they even manage to crawl up and pick up themselves? Would they manage to accept they made a mistake and ask for forgiveness? Would they be able to forgive? Would they reach out? I had hoped that I was as sheltered as other people from all sorts of deceiving - self inflicted or not.
Looking back, I know my life isn't the life anyone in my position would be proud of, but what makes me grateful is that, at least somehow, I made it. I may have resisted and failed to respond to God's grace, but still I will be forever indebted to the sovereignty that He has given. It was His guidance that re-aligned my directions according to his purposes and plans for me.
"I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6
"It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone. (Ephesians 1:11, 12 MSG)
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