While I Am Still Mighty To Dance.

Not Thursday but this is a BBT post.

For those who don't know what my BBT is all about.. Click Here.

Every Thursday I debug my brain from a lot of thoughts I came up with the whole week. :)

I have lots of things to blog about, also some important changes in my life lately. However with all the things I am blessed with today, I am excited that i finally have learned to DANCE. :)

I am currently reading a book titled Facing Your Giants. And in one of it's chapters; DISTANT DEITY, Max Lucado illustrated how God comes to in His own terms. He (Max) explained that when David experienced the presence of God, He danced with all his might.

¹⁴ David, wearing a linen ephod, danced before the LORD with all his might

2 Samuel 6:14

David danced like a kid whenever He experience the presence of His father (God). And I believe, any human father would dance too as he see his children welcome him with all their twirling and dancing, giving all their might. :)

Dancing is one thing i never learned. One I am not passionate with. I feel embarrassed whenever there's a need to dance. And I feel unsure for myself. This is probably one the reasons why I questioned David's way of presenting himself before God.

I grew up as someone who always doubt. I always need assurance. I always feel the need to know how well I am doing and how well people see me.

But this passage, brings me back to some truths that God is teaching me for the past 23 years of my life.

First-- that my relationship with God determines my confidence in Him.

Second -- that no matter how i try to tell myself that I am just another face in the crowd, God sees me and He dances with me whether I do a very graceful leap or struggle with my inept steps.

This way, I enjoy dancing while I am still mighty to dance!!

Until my next BBT. :)

Yearn: For the Lover of my Soul.

I love listening to this song.. I love the idea how One Perfect Being could love an imperfect person like me.

I love you BEST!

Yearn

Holy design
This place in time
That I might seek and find my God, my God

Lord, I wanna yearn for You
I wanna burn with passion over You
Only You
Lord, I wanna yearn for You
I wanna burn with passion over You
Only You
Lord, I wanna yearn

Your joy is mine
Yet why am I fine
With all my singing and bringing grain

In light of Him

Oh you give life and breath
Through Him You give all things
In Him we live and move
That's why I sing

Stucked Thoughts.

This is a BBT post. (Brain Bug Thursday).. i think i need to pull this off in advance since I have nothing to do here at the office.

Oh yeah,, by the way, I'm currently stucked alone here at the office.. with (imagine the scene) rain pouring hard outside, flooded street, without a single vehicle passing by.. no sign of a passing cab to save me and bring me home. It's already 8pm and if i did not decide to finish up some work from a meeting which was ended super late (530pm).. i probably could've left the office at exactly 5pm. I ordered food only to hear the lady from the other line say, "Mam, your food will be delivered in 45 mins", which registered to me as "Mam, you cant eat in 45 mins even if it's 8pm already and you are starving".

But I wonder why after all these "hassles" i am caught into, I am remaining calm, secured, enjoying every tick of the clock knowing ill be home in a bit.. cuddling my pillows under the warm embrace of my quilts.

My patience is one thing I am surprised to be stretched lately..
My perception about things is another thing that surprises me too..

Am i getting mature lately or things just learned to adjust on their own? That they just got tired picking on me..or im probably.. inside a big bubble? That no matter how different the circumstances may be, im getting entertained?.. or probably im in a shell? wherein i couldnt be in any way affected by anything..

I am happy i was able to master my own emotions.. and now I am living on top of it.. in FULL CONTROL.. :D

(My coffee is now in the microwave..it might save me a little energy so that when the food arrives, im still sane.. lol)

I have a lot of things to blog really. But, those are things i cant blog yet. it will take time.. a season probably before i could blog about them but i am patiently waiting.. cause i know it's worth waiting..

Somebody told me this..

"the real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time but also to leave the wrong thing unsaid at the most tempting moment"..

At times, proper timing could make things special.

How dysfunctional I can be without wisdom.

Proverbs 19: 11

¹¹ A man's wisdom gives him patience;

Lines.

Took some lines from Twilight! 

*Sigh,

--You caught me off guard. But I'm on my best behavior now..


*Sigh,

--I was afraid… because, for, well, obvious reasons, I can't stay with you. And I'm afraid that I'd like to stay with you, much more than I should..



*Sigh,

--I'm essentially a selfish creature. I crave your company too much to do what I should..


*Sigh,
--I had to run out, to get away before I could speak the words that would make you follow…


*Sigh,
--You already know how I feel, of course.. I'm here… which, roughly translated, means I would rather Fall than stay away from you


*Sigh,
--It won't be so hard again..


*Sigh,
-- I'm intoxicated by your presence...

Brain Bug Thursday.

It's Thursday.. as usual..Brain Debugging Day.

--I am on a fast today... okay in my vocabulary i call it Purposeful Starvation.

I'm praying for WISDOM, GOD's PROVISION, and PURPOSE. My prayer shields would know the specific areas and decisions i need to pray for and I'm enjoying this day so far.

-- I am thinking of the things I traded before in the past.. (some made me sad, some made me feel blessed) and while I'm thinking of those things, I thought of those things i could still trade in for something.

-- Why do I miss 'someone" within my reach? Oh im so desperate.. tsk tsk.. (with a grin)

-- LG: Last night is our Leadership Group. And I wonder why girls consumes too much time on topic about LOVE. But I learned a lot from my LG last night. So at home I realized that I need to tweak some of my standards. Then I came across a list of compromises Id do with God. Now, I'm leaning more on the wisdom side. :)

-- I'm going to surf this weekend. It'll be fun cause all my surfing friends are coming. FAMILIA.. solis steady trip for sure, plus my sister is coming,, plus YVes and Chibong are coming with Pipay.


That's all for this BBT. :) Happy Long Weekend to Me!

SHOE-tography.

I loooovveee collecting shoes..


Unfortunately, I only have limited pairs since i got back from Boracay.


'Shoes tells a lot about someone's personality'.. i dont know how but yeah i would agree.


Before I "shoe-w" you my limited "Shoe-collates".


Let me give you some brief background about Shoes that girls must have.


This was taken from an article in red carpet victim.


When building your wardrobe, some articles of clothing are essentials, while others are luxuries. If you are trying to establish a wardrobe that is suitable for the office, nights out on the town and weekends at home relaxing, you will need a pair of shoes from each of these essential shoe styles.

Top 12 TYPES OF WOMEN SHOES

Classic Black Pump
The classic black pump can be worn everyday to the office, to church, to job interviews and to just about every other business occasion. This closed toe simple shoe should have a 2-3 inch heel depending on your own personal preference. You can choose from leather, microfiber or other fabrics. Just keep it basic.


Neutral Low Heel Pump
You can’t wear black with every outfit. Therefore you need another neutral. Beige or taupe would make great options. However, you can also choose navy or brown, if you have more clothing in those color scheme. This should be a low or kitten heel shoe that has also has a closed toe. Whether you choose round or pointed toes is up to you, but remember that round are more comfortable. This shoe should be versatile enough to wear with twill pants, slacks or even a dress.



Open Toe Dress Heel
This open or peep-toe shoe can be a closed back pump or a slingback. The heel should be higher than the first two shoes, preferably 3-4 inches. This shoe is for dressing up - whether you are going on date, to meet the girls for drinks, or to your company party. The open toe makes it a little sexy. A shiny patent leather or metallic are good options. But remember that you want this shoe to last through several seasons. Therefore, you shouldn’t pick anything that’s too trendy.


Tall Boot
Everybody should have one knee-high boot in their closet. If you living in a cold, wet climate, you should probably stick to flat boots. High heel tall boots are more difficult to walk in on icy sidewalks. You can choose a dressy variety, or a waterproof winter boot with shearling lining or furry trim. Choose a boot in either black or brown that can be worn regularly throughout the fall and winter. Slouchy boots are also an alternative, but this style comes and goes in popularity.


Ankle Boot
Booties or ankle boots are also great options. You can select the menswear style booties that look like oxfords, but have a boot heel. Or instead, pick up a pair of traditional ankle boots that come up just over your ankle. Distressed leather, patent leather and suede are terrific fabric choices in ankle boots. Heels can be flat, stacked or even stilettos. Find a pair that fits your personality.


Athletic Shoe
You want to keep in shape, so you should have one top quality athletic shoe. Choose from Nike, Adidas, PUMA, New Balance are other established athletic shoe companies. If you do a lot of running, make sure to get a pair of athletic shoes with plenty of cushioning and support. If you play a particular sport, find the shoe that is best suited for your workouts or training regimen.

Summer Sandal
A flat or low-heeled summer sandal is a must. You can choose a flip flop thong or any number of other type of sandals. Pick bright colors, metallics or prints. If you spend a lot time near the water in the summer, choose a rubber or waterproof sandal. If you tend to party and go out often, choose a dressier variety.


Evening Shoe
Every woman should have one absolutely drop dead gorgeous evening shoe. You can choose a silver high-heel sandal embellished with rhinestones, an elegant black evening shoe or a multitude of other styles. If you go out to formal affairs often, don’t be afraid to spend a big chunk of change on an incredible evening shoe. However, if you rarely get dressed up, choose a more affordable option instead.


Flat or Skimmer
Ballet flats or skimmers are comfortable shoes that are very versatile. Skimmers come in fun colors and patterns. These shoes can be worn with jeans, capris or other casual wear. If you want something a little more dressy, you can choose a ballet flat trimmed with bows, jewels and ribbons instead.


Suede Mules
Pick a suede or fabric mule with a 2-3 inch heel that can be worn from the office to Happy Hour. These open back shoes come in a variety of shapes and sizes. Pick one that suits your own personal style.
Slipper
A pair of warm slippers are essential for hanging out at home, lounging in your pajamas, or using after you get out of the shower. You can choose closed or open toes depending on your preference. Pick fun colors like pink or outrageous prints.


Favorite Shoe
This shoe is your wildcard. It can be an espadrille sandal, a funky wedge pump or a wild pair of platforms. It can be your favorite shoe for dressing up, or your everyday shoe to wear on casual days. If this is a shoe that you will wear for many seasons, shell out the cash and get a shoe that you really love. Whether it’s a designer high heel or an extra pair of sneakers.

Brain Bug Thursday.

Thursday again. It's BBT time.
Today's BBT is about my week's:

HASSLE MOMENTS

1. I have phobia in going to hospitals. It gives me nausea seeing stretchers, wheel chairs, doctors and stuff.

Hassle that last Tuesday i had to go to Makati Med's ER to have myself examined for chicken pox, all by myself.

2. I was quarantined but it turns out that it wasn't chicken pox. I still have mild fever tho.

Hassle i had to stay home.

3. I've been eating a lot these days.

Hassle that i'm getting used to live with my junks.

4. My bag is mistreating me. It's bag attack.

Hassle that i have to get a lot of this-----

5. My Ipod Headset loves swimming in my coffee cup.


                                      Hassle.. hassle lang.. hahaha..
Anyways,,


Sometimes,, I have to NOT CARE in order for me to keep my sanity...


"Hassle will be hassle if you'll let them hassle with you."- Nyenye


With all of this.. i still smile..because i choose not to be hassled. hahaha..

Im sick but im happy :)

Brain Bug Thursday.

 At last! my first official post in this site..


Well, today is Thursday and of course it's my privilege to speak my mind.


-I am happy. Just happy. I dont know why.. but I am satisfied. I do not want to complicate my life with people and their freakin dramas lately. haha..


-I am excited about my Spanish Class.. yes at last classes will start on June 2. Ive waited for the enrollment like MONTHHHSSS!! and so my waiting at last is over.


-I feel so peaceful these few days. Probably because i don't have too many accounts to check and be involved with. hehe


-I am a little disturbed about something. And I wonder, why the thought of it could make me smile, for no reason at all. It is so Ironic that I know it's something disturbing yet it calms me. It paralyzes me yet it somehow freed me from something ive been tied up to lately.


Or maybe I am just over-analyzing.


- I am a bit worried that my hair is growing fast. i just had it cut and now it grew to the same
length.


- I am a little upset that i am gaining weight. Well, kinda happy that my legs and arms doesn't look like pole anymore.. (haha.. exaggerating) but still i hope I'd stop gaining weight before it's too late.

Anyways,

I have nothing much to post actually. I am getting a little lazy lately..

Til next post. :D

Nyenye

Brain Bug Thursday.

(May 09, 2009)

It's Thursday....

yesterday...

and today is Friday.. (getting mixed up already)

Well, I don't know.. my mind is empty really... void actually cause I'm waiting for something to hit me..

*Have you ever done something intentionally that you know the consequences would hunt you down afterward? And so you wait and expect for something bad to happen anytime soon.

Maybe a flat tire.. or maybe a series of unfortunate (for lack of better terms) events.. or maybe something you've been praying for the longest time to turn out not as you've expected.

Disappointment.. i found this very common to any human. I even get to be disappointed by my own self especially those decisions i made when caught "off-guard."

"The frailty of our own sinful humanness is a heavy burden."

- Mark Conner

As I sit and wonder on how God has been so naive of this disappointing human nature, on how sinful man can get.. on how incapable we are at times to overcome temptation, I was able to see and ponder and all the more appreciate His being. His love for us and His Grace.

Since I was a kid, I would always wait and expect God to punish me whenever I did something wrong. And since then, God is giving me the opposite. He all the more shows me love. He all the more makes me feel welcome, that no matter how disappointed I am with myself, He is enough to make me feel justified. He uses His kindness to lure me back.

"For those who feel their lives are a grave disappointment to God, it requires enormous trust and reckless, raging confidence to accept that the love of Christ knows no shadow of alteration or change."

- Mark Conner

Yes , Grace is the antidote of disappointment which is freely given to us... But I believe Grace must always be accompanied with TRUTH.

"Grace comes in response to a repentant heart. Truth means that there will still be consequences for his actions and reconciliation to be worked towards.."

- Mark Conner

As grace is given freely to us, it should not be abused. God, is Forgiving yet on the other side is Holy that He will not allow sin to thrive in our lives. He gives us grace whenever we fall but He also disciplines. God cleanses His house. He cleanses His people. But this will happen only if we will allow God to identify and point on those character, attitude and habit he wanted to eliminate in us.

"I've been counting up all my wrongs
One sorry for each star
See I'd apologize my way to you
If the heavens stretched that far"

-Arithmetic

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.

(May 05, 2009)

"Waiting on God isn't about the suspension of meaning and purpose. It's part of the meaning and purpose that God has brought into my life.

Waiting on God isn't to be viewed as an obstruction in the way of the plan. Waiting is an essential part of the plan. For the child of God, waiting isn't simply about what I'll receive at the end of my wait. No, waiting is much more purposeful, efficient, and practical than that. Waiting is fundamentally about what I'll become as I wait. God is using the wait to do in and through me exactly what He's promised. Through the wait He's changing me. By means of the wait He's altering the fabric of my thoughts and desires. Through the wait He's causing me to see and experience new things about Him and His kingdom. And all of this sharpens me, enabling me to be a more useful tool in His redemptive hands. Trusting God actually takes effort. Trusting God actually takes work. It takes reading the Bible. It takes meditating on Scripture. It takes praying about things. It takes taking our own souls to task and stopping one kind of thinking and turning to another kind of thinking. It takes work. It takes effort."

...All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again....

...I don't want to fall short of
All you've made me to be
And I..
I don't have to cause I know you
Made a way for me to be
All you ask of me...

Brain Bug Thursday

(April 29, 2009)

Thursday- as usual is Brain Bug Thursday. A privilege to speak my mind out loud.


-My mum sent me some drugs. hahaha. (she's so mindful of us)


-No Uncle Moe's today. We'll have Ravioli and crepe at home.


-I miss Ate Mel and Kuya Tito badly. [I will soon crash into your place pag di pa tayo nagschedule ulit ng labas. :)]


-I dunno how to cheer up Nova anymore..She seems a little depress lately. :(


-I'm starting my plurk account from scratch. So my karma is on strike.


-I wasn't able to sleep last night cause i did a lot of reasoning on things that were pure rants and moot points.


After praying and crying out to God (Oh yeah, i'm such a cry baby). God reminded me of the word "WISDOM". They say that--


"WISDOM will be proved right by her actions."


I believe that people will measure you by how you define things. Therefore, you live according to your definition (standards). Thus, your actions will determine your conviction. HOWEVER in every decision, remember that..no matter how many times you jabber on what you believe in,,, "PEOPLE WILL ONLY SEE YOUR ACTIONS AND NOT YOUR CONVICTIONS".


I could hardly breathe last night as I held myself together while I struggled to surrender my future plans. Though I know I will soak into disappointment anytime soon as I give up everything and wait for the proper timing; the faith and wisdom these decisions were founded into... (no matter how painful the process could be) in time, will prove itself right.

2 Corinthians 8:21

21"For we are taking pains to do what is right, not only in the eyes of the Lord but also in the eyes of men."

History Behind Arithmetic.

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"If I add, if I subtract, If I give it all try to take some back, I forgotten then freedom that comes from the fact, that YOU are the sum.. and YOU are the one.. I want"

ARITHMETIC was taken from the song Arithmetic by Brooke Fraser. I met her long before she made her album and she continually inspires me with her music until today.

I could describe myself the same as this SLOI test described me.

Extroversion	||||||||||||||||	70%
Emotional Stability	||||||||||	40%
Orderliness	||||||||||||||||||||	90%
Accommodation	||||||||||||||||||	73%
Inquisitiveness	||||||||||||||||	63%

Your sloan type is SLOAI Your primary type is Organized

Organized

more controlled than random, more logical than abstract, uncomfortable when things are imperfect, more grounded than in the clouds, overachiever, likes the security of working for a company, motivated, wants everything to add up perfectly, saves money instead of spending it, feels best when working, does not go to concerts frequently, feels success provides a good model/example for others, not a fan of political instability and revolution, /wants to be good, balanced, and have integrity; fears being corrupt, evil, or defective/, does not like to look weird, financially prudent, mature, prefers non fiction to fiction, not a big partier, values tradition, values hard work, anti-tattoos, purposeful, thinks of most things in terms of costs and benefits

SLOAI

open, organized, asks lots of questions, outgoing, prone to panic, easily hurt, narcissistic, detail oriented, concerned about others, the first to act, believes children need firm discipline, finish most things they start, comfortable around others, upset by the misfortunes of strangers, socially skilled, compliments others frequently, interested in people, busy, interested in the problems of others, tens, physically affectionate, overly nice, likes to lead, generous, in touch with feelings, not afraid to draw attention to self, manipulative, prone to jealousy, worrying, easily excited, motivated by a desire for acclaim, prone to addiction, frequently driven to impress others, passionate about causes, swayed by emotions, curious, anxious, passionate about bettering the world’s condition, stressed, keeps spaces clean, believes in human goodness, well informed, thoughtful, assertive, fears doing the wrong thing, rushed..

Now This is How I See Myself

I am a detailed type of person. Result oriented and Excellence is important to me. No Mediocre. Unless i have not finished a thing, I would not jump to another.

I love to cry..cry is the flush of my emotions.I cry everytime i laugh, i am happy, i am excited or when i am angry, and hurt. Most of my close friends know it. The Unspoken Nye is sensitive and very fragile. Small things grieve me sometimes.

I always find interest in different people. I knew they have characters that i could learn from, also that we are made uniquely from each other, i try to learn for others that's why I love to spend time with people! I am a friendly type of person. I'm talkative of in good mood, but i know how to be silent at times. If I'm silent, I may be thinking of a thing or just talking to God.

Yeah, I love talking to God.For i know He is the one who could accept the Real Nye. I wanted to please Him always. That’s why as much as possible, be a good testimony to others..

I love music. Anything about it. Instruments, lyrics etc.

MY MOOD: I am romantic in my outlook with a bit of a taste for the exotic. I love feeling the sea breeze in my hair, sun on my skin... I always take the first dip. When it comes to art I appreciate precision and hard work. Nothing is more impressive than real craftsmanship.

FUN FOR ME: I love to be far away from my everyday life. There’s nothing like catching some rays and slowing down- I know how to get things nice and easy. For kicks, there’s nothing like a little affection to give me a buzz. When it comes to holidays, I like a very special treat, a chance to recharge my batteries in luxurious surroundings as well as spending time with my friends and family

MY HABITS: If I feel good outside, I would definitely feel good inside too. At times, I need to take an extra kick in order for me get myself going. I don’t like to take things seriously. Friendship is about enjoying myself and seeing the funny side of life. When I think of freedom, I think of hanging out with good friends. And I am always happy to make the first leap.